Everything Stopped
24 Feb 2020
The night came, and the sudden news hit me so hard in the face. Time seems to tick normally, but it's actually a ticking bom.
The moment came out from the door, I hear hard banging, shouts, and hustling voices. Very scary. I tried to keep calm and breath. Finally, I open the door.
After a while... everything stopped.
My head hurts, eyes blurred, body trembles and my mouth shuts.
The nightmare just began.
The worst nightmare is going to start the show.
Lots of confusion in my head and little choices I have, I'm forced to pack my things up. Leaving my clothes, leave my books, leave my bed and leave my room. Head down the stairs, and like a cat, leaving the house without saying goodbye to the owner.
I got inside the car, keeping myself distant away from the people. The journey felt short. The normal me when I get into the car, I sleep. But this time is different. I was afraid, trembling but also unbelieving that this is happening.
I didn't cry.
Didn't feel anger.
Nor feel sad.
It's just... blank thoughts.
We arrived around 3pm. I felt exhausted, tired...
I head straight to my room, ignoring the eyes of anger.
My body needs to rest. Preparing for the big day counting... in 5 hours.
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Eyes start to open slowly... body trying to balance itself, and mind trying to comprehend what happened last night.
I sat still. Don't know for how long. But I felt thirsty. I slowly go down to the kitchen to grab a glass of water.
Let me tell you, the situation was so nerve-wracking.
It was so quite, deserted. I can hear my own heart beating so fast.
Finally made it safe back to my room.
But the moment is slowly coming to play.
I couldn't wait any longer, stupid me, I came in front of the angry people. And finally, I can say, it was a bad start. Then, I wait for the worst.
Beating, bruises, black and blues. That's all I can say :)
I wished to faint atleast, but alas, it didn't come true.
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Hours and hours. It doesn't seems to stop. My body can't help anymore. Well... the real saviour is up there. But I needed the moment saviour, my own sis.
Begging her if she can take me away for a while, just an hour.. or day it'll be better. Or else, I can die eating myself to death being near with those people.
I felt relieved. Very very relieved when she came. My thoughts actually wondered if they would let me leave the house or not. But actually my mom encourage me to stay with my sis for some days.
I...
Can...
Breath...
Again...
The night came, and the sudden news hit me so hard in the face. Time seems to tick normally, but it's actually a ticking bom.
The moment came out from the door, I hear hard banging, shouts, and hustling voices. Very scary. I tried to keep calm and breath. Finally, I open the door.
After a while... everything stopped.
My head hurts, eyes blurred, body trembles and my mouth shuts.
The nightmare just began.
The worst nightmare is going to start the show.
Lots of confusion in my head and little choices I have, I'm forced to pack my things up. Leaving my clothes, leave my books, leave my bed and leave my room. Head down the stairs, and like a cat, leaving the house without saying goodbye to the owner.
I got inside the car, keeping myself distant away from the people. The journey felt short. The normal me when I get into the car, I sleep. But this time is different. I was afraid, trembling but also unbelieving that this is happening.
I didn't cry.
Didn't feel anger.
Nor feel sad.
It's just... blank thoughts.
We arrived around 3pm. I felt exhausted, tired...
I head straight to my room, ignoring the eyes of anger.
My body needs to rest. Preparing for the big day counting... in 5 hours.
---------------------
Eyes start to open slowly... body trying to balance itself, and mind trying to comprehend what happened last night.
I sat still. Don't know for how long. But I felt thirsty. I slowly go down to the kitchen to grab a glass of water.
Let me tell you, the situation was so nerve-wracking.
It was so quite, deserted. I can hear my own heart beating so fast.
Finally made it safe back to my room.
But the moment is slowly coming to play.
I couldn't wait any longer, stupid me, I came in front of the angry people. And finally, I can say, it was a bad start. Then, I wait for the worst.
Beating, bruises, black and blues. That's all I can say :)
I wished to faint atleast, but alas, it didn't come true.
----------------------
Hours and hours. It doesn't seems to stop. My body can't help anymore. Well... the real saviour is up there. But I needed the moment saviour, my own sis.
Begging her if she can take me away for a while, just an hour.. or day it'll be better. Or else, I can die eating myself to death being near with those people.
I felt relieved. Very very relieved when she came. My thoughts actually wondered if they would let me leave the house or not. But actually my mom encourage me to stay with my sis for some days.
I...
Can...
Breath...
Again...
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