Day 367+

I stared at the window this night
Watching the rain pour hard and it was relaxing
I see my phone lit up, a notify from you
My face made a smile while I opened the text
The smile grew wider, 'i miss you so much'

The lightning suddenly struck me back to reality
I'm not his anyone...
I'm fooling myself again...
I'm falling for him, I know I shouldn't
I wanted to move on
Find someone new
Get a man who can stand for its girl
Be loved back

But I keep going back to him
'He's mine' I hear myself
'He's not yours, neither you're his'
'Let go of him' I don't know if the heart wants that
But my selfishness is too strong even just to slip him through my fingers

But someday,
Ready or not...
I will hear the words from you... 'i finally got a new girlfriend'
That's not me, I know
I know I will stare the screen smiling with teary eyes
I know I'll be glad for you to finally love someone
I know my heart is breaking
I know this may happen

That's why, I don't have the courage to let you go for now
I'm afraid
God.. is it a mistake that we met?

Again, I see myself coming back to you
It's dangerous kids, beware of your heart.

'its a mistake'